Thursday, April 19, 2007

prepare my umbrella before rain comes

2 hari belakangan gw banyak baca2 situs/blog yang berkaitan dengan investasi. Why investasi? Sederhana bgt. Gw kerja, pendapatan gw tergantung dari "pihak" lain, gw belum punya modal buat bikin usaha sendiri, so gw perlu cara buat ngejaga uang yang gw terima tiap bulannya gak habis buat keperluan pokok aja, tapi bisa mulai membangun masa depan gw. Berapa lama sih masa kerja produktif manusia? Kalau gak hati2 dan main abisin aja gaji yang didapat, bisa2 akan terlambat buat mulai menyisihkannya mulai dari sedini mungkin. Ada beberapa alternatif investasi yang bisa dipilih. Dari baca2 itu, gw menyarankan lo-lo pada juga mulai mukirin mengenai investasi ini. Bentuknya bisa apa saja. Cari yg sesuai kebutuhan, aman dan halal, pastinya. Okay?

Coming soon : "NEW OFFICE". Only at theater...

Gw diterima ni di perusahaan baru, sebut saja PT. E. Gw kerja di divisi Research & Development (R&D). Kerjanya akan seputar alat tes, modul dan analisis. He3x... konsep bgt de, pokoknya. Gw banget 'kan? Kabar diterimanya si udah dari minggu lalu, tapi... berhubung gw masih punya banyak tugas di sini jadi baru masuk awal Mei.

Di tempat yang baru nanti, gw harap dapat ilmu yang lebih banyak, lebih "gw banget", teman yg lebih banyak dan baik2, gak sering pulang malam, makin gaul, penampilan makin oke, dapat jodoh yg baik, trus... Loh?! Loh?! Kok jadi makin ngaco?! Jadi ketauan deh tujuan 'tersembunyi' gw *ketawa ngakak ampe kejedot meja*.

Last but not least, wish me luck, doakan gw yg terbaik ya!!!!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

... yes, I let my love flow ...

Mirna, your palm reveals you are especially good at Letting your love flow.

Your palm shows you are a very warm and compassionate person. You give your affection freely to friends and family that you care about most.



Mo tau apa kata telapak tangan loe? (menurut situs ini ya...). Klik ini !

Do You Follow Your Heart or Your Head?

Untuk hari ini, tambah 1 hasil tes lagi ya! Abisnya gw penasaran bgt : gw lebih sering pakai "kepala" atau "hati" dalam mengambil keputusan. Klik di sini kalo lo juga pengen tau!

Mirna, you follow your heart when it comes to success.

You're an impassioned individual who just can't suppress your ideals. You've got a strong sense of right and wrong, and want to let people know when they've crossed the line. Sure, there are times when you sit back to hear both sides of an argument. But people had better stay out of the way when your fiery passions take hold.

But just because you can be a bit of a rebel with a cause, it doesn't mean you're incapable of being understanding and compassionate. It's because you're so invested in your ideas and interests that you can work so tirelessly toward your goals and speak up for what you believe in. So keep pouring your heart into it. With conviction like yours, you're sure to succeed!

Big Apple, I'm coming!!!!

Huah... pengen banget gw teriakin kalimat itu!! Gw setuju bgt sama hasil tes di bawah ini karena gw emang senang tinggal di crowded-big-modern city. Kapan ya bisa ke NY??? Mo tau kota yg sesuai ma diri lo? Klik di sini ! Lagi getol klik-klik tes nih. Jadi keterusan deh... He3x...

Mirna, your signature city is New York.

Whether you like to have lots of options at your fingertips or you like to be in a metropolitan environment that's buzzing with energy, the Big Apple is the perfect place for you. Maybe you like to mix and mingle at some of the edgiest restaurants, shops, and clubs in the world. Or maybe you like to be in the middle of it all — in the bright lights and big city.
One night could be dinner and a show on Broadway, a stroll through Central Park the next, or a trip to the Met the next. From Grand Central Station to Greenwich Village, New York's got some of the biggest and edgiest things to see and do anywhere in the world. No wonder a trendsetter like you would be right at home in the Big Apple.

My Inkblot Test Result

Ini hasil tes yg lain berdasarkan inkblot (mirip2 Rorschach Test gitu dey). Secara ini tes buat reveal unconsciousness jadi gw gak bisa yakin juga sesuai sama gw apa enggak. Mo juga? Klik di sini ! Gw ingetin ya, harus sabar karena ada 56 pertanyaan.

Mirna, your subconscious mind is driven most by Love Everyone has a desire to love. But your desire is rooted very deeply in your unconscious and affects many of the decisions you make in life — whether you are aware of it or not.

You have an energy about you that inspires people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. In this way, you and your drive for loving relationships start a chain reaction of positive experiences.

The reason you are driven by love, may be because your unconscious is trying to avoid the opposite of love — hate. You, more than others, may be afraid of experiencing severe discord with others. That may, in turn, heavily influence your choices about relationships and the way you communicate your ideas, wants, and desires to others.

With such a strong orientation towards loving others, your relationships hold a very special place in your life. Your capacity to love may be greater than those around you, and therefore you may have more to give in relationships than your romantic partner does. Remember that this is a gift you have and one most others don't possess.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Love, there is much more to who you are at your core.

Mirna, your true color is Brown!

Ini hasil tes gw di situs ini. Banyak bagusnya loh. He3x... menurut gw sih sesuai bgt ma gw. Menurut lo??

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision.

Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music.

Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

Do you want to know your true color? Click here! Get various kind of tests.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Quote : from "By Pricking of My Thumbs" - Agatha Christie

"Karena kebohongan bercerita sama banyaknya dengan kebenaran." (Hercule Poirot)

Thank you for being a part of my life

--- Tulisan ini gw dapat dari milis angkatan gw. Bagus bgt deh. ---


People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring t he relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent has been answered and now it's time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have n eve r done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Beli eve it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

--- Bagus, kan? *ngancem bawa piso* Membantu gw melupakan someone yg mungkin come into my life for a reason or a season. Hiks hiks ... ---

Reff : maaf kujenuh padamu...

ini hal yang mo gw posting minggu lalu tapi karena internet yg (seperti biasa) dodolnya lagi kumat, yah gagal deh!

2 hari belakangan gw malas untuk berangkat dan melakukan kegiatan yang namanya kerja. Gak semangat. Mungkin ini yang namanya masa jenuh *backsound : Maaf kujenuh padamu ... (Rio Febrian)*. Kalau dinyatakan dengan angka, gw kerja sebagai staf memasuki bulan ke-8. Ini berarti sudah 7 bulan belakangan gw melakukan pekerjaan yang sama. Ternyata dah lumayan lama juga gw disini.
Duh, hari ini hati gw kok gak tenang ya? Ada apa? Ada apa ya? Khawatir nih... Aku sebal dg anxiety* spt ini.


* anxiety = kecemasan tetapi sumber/penyebab tidak diketahui

Thursday, April 05, 2007

H + 1

Today is (H + 1) day after making decision. I admit still thinking of him, however, it's much easier to take a deep breath and switch my mind over something else. Now I'm focusing to pass my psychotest on company E. Yeah, I'm searhing new job. I have some dissatisfaction about my current job. Salah satunya alasannya soal P7 (baca blog yg ini). I deserve better job. And the struggle begin ... join job-seeker mailinglist ... sending cv ... waiting ... still waiting ... receiving call ... attend psychotest ... interview ... beeing hired. I'm on quarter-end of the journey. Wish me luck !!!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

.. and finally I let him go away ...

Tadi malem, jam 21.33, selama 6 menit 8 detik, dia nelpon gw. Huhuhu... i think this is the time. Time to REALLY REALLY let him go away. "Out of sight, out of mind", moga2 itu yg terjadi ma gw. Kemaren gw bener2 gak bisa nahan diri gw untuk tanyain dan tegasin beberapa hal. Kayaknya si "rasa"-nya udah ilang, cuma kok belum rela ya ? (yeee... emangnya bisa gak ada rasa tp gak rela??). Gw pikir mungkin sebenarnya gw takut aja buat ngelepasin orang yg udah lama bgt ada di hati gw. Takut akan "kekosongan" yg menganga.

In the other hand, my rational-part-of-mind remind me that i can't move forward without taking any risk. "No pain, no gain", kata orang Jawa *basi mode : ON*. Eniwei, at least gw tau sekarang kesibukan dia apa. Seperti yg gw bilang sebelumhya, kita tuh emang BEDA bgt, yg makin jelas aja sejak kmarin. Gw sempat berpikir buat confess, tp gw nyadar gw gak akan seberani itu.

May be just Oprah said, "He's just not into you". Dia ga segitu sukanya sama gw sampe berani ungkapin perasaannya. Dia cuman gak segitunya ma gw. Bukan, ingat, BUKAN karena I'm not good enough, BUKAN karena there's something wrong about me. He's just not into me. I deserve someone better.

The bright side is I'm be more focus on my own plan. Masih banyak tujuan yg mesti gw capai, rencana yg mesti gw susun, proses yg mesti gw jalanin. Kita sama2 jalanin kehidupan masing2. Mungkin hanya soal takdir kalo kita tdk meng-capture target yg sama. That's it. Cukuplah begini saja akhirnya. Gw HARUS RELA.


Prolog :

... i was crying badly after i had hung the phone up ... I didn't say it's easy to do, did I ?

Monday, April 02, 2007

cukup gak yah????

Pertanyaan di atas pasti sering diajukan oleh karyawan P7* seperti gw, terutama di tengah bulan. Bulan ini ternyata lebih parah karena baru tgl 2 pertanyaan rutin itu udah nyangkut di kepala. Pasalnya, sabtu kmaren gw blanja novel AC** di Pesta Buku Gramedia. Diskon 50% bo'! Langsunglah dg kalap memborong segala judul yg gw blum punya. Tau jumlahnya berapa? 24 BUKU!!!! Dan nominal Rp 300ribuan ter-kredit-kan-lah dari rekening gw. Sebagian dari pasti setuju dong kalo jumlah segitu tuh gak ada artinya dibanding dg ilmu yg bakal didapat *rasionalisasi mode : ON*. Tapi..... begitu kita melakukan komparasi : angka tsb 1/x gaji gw (x = sengaja disamarkan untuk menghindarkan diri dari dampak penurunan self-esteem yg lbh besar).

Dalam keadaan biasa (baca: tanpa diskon ato diskon max 20%) gw palingan cuman nelen ludah pahit doang klo liat novel AC. Paling banter beli 1 - 3 biji doang. Makanya langsung ga bs nahan diri melihat angka diskon abnormal itu (tanpa menyadari bahwa nominal yg kecil pun bila dikalikan 24 buah pasti jatohnya gede juga).




* P7 = Pergi Pagi Pulang Petang Penghasilan Pas-Pasan
** AC = Agatha Christie

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

No regret, I think...

“Tak pernah menyesal mengenal dirimu
Jalan yang kutempuh tak tertuju padamu
Ku tak ‘kan sesali pengalaman cinta ini
Wanita terindah pernah jadi milikku”

(“Tak Pernah Menyesal”, Anang-Krisdayanti)


First of all, untuk menyesuaikan dg diri gw, bait terakhir di atas gw ganti jd : "Lelaki terindah pernah (nyaris) jadi milikku". Heuheuheu... Maksa!

Eniwei ...
Cinta kan tidak selalu berakhir dgn perjodohan
Cinta kan tak harus memiliki
Dan gw yakin cinta saat ini akan mengajari kita
Untuk meraih cinta selanjutnya
Karena itulah … gw gak pernah menyesal pernah cinta lo
Walau tampaknya tak ada tempat buat cinta gw di hati lo



~~huhuhu…gara2 dengar lagu ini gw jd menye2 lagi de~~


Friday, March 23, 2007

Anggota DPR minta laptop?!!!? Bikin muak!!!

Muak!!! Dan marah!!! (hingga nyaris murka) Itu perasaan gw wkt nonton berita tadi pagi : Anggota DPR minta dan akan diberikan laptop. Alasan : untuk menunjang kinerja. Permintaan laptop tsb dikabulkan dan akan diterima anggota DPR paling lambat Mei 2007. Permintaan tsb sebenarnya mendapat kecaman keras, tapi seperti biasa, kalo menyangkut "kesejahteraan" anggota DPR, show (absolutely) go on. Yg bikin makin kesalnya lagi, spesifikasi laptop yg diinginkan itu "terlalu" bagus : maunya yg ringan, memorinya besar, layarnya 10 inchi, blablabla blablabla.... Harganya : sekitar 21 juta (Rupiah, tentunya) per unit laptop. Mual bgt gak seh dengernya ?!?!!!!

3 hal yg bikin gw MARAH!!!

1. Emangnya mereka gak bisa beli sendiri? Gw yakin dengan gaji seorang anggota DPR (+ klo mereka punya penghasilan di luar), mereka sangat-sangat mampu membeli sendiri. Tidak dengan uang rakyat.

2. Kenapa mintanya macem2 bgt sih? Emangnya sekomplit itukah spesifikasi yg mereka perlukan? Kalo mo dibeliin ya gak usah minta macem2. Perlu memori besar? Memangnya anak desain grafis?! (Warning : penyebutan desain grafis di sini hanya sebagai contoh. Tdk ada maksud menyudutkan pihak tertentu ;p)

3. Membayangkan rakyat yang mengetahui uang 12,1 Milyar "cuma" akan dibelikan laptop buat para "wakil"-nya pasti sakit hati-miris-merasa dikhianati banget. Kalo seorang "wakil rakyat" ber-laptop, bukankah mestinya "rakyat" (di atas "wakil rakyat") mestinya sudah punya laptop duluan? Jangankan laptop, banyak yg untuk makan aja susah. Coba bayangin kalo dana itu digunakan buat yg lagi kena bencana. Gw gak usah sebutin tempatnya, secara byk bgt daerah yg lagi kena bencana dan konflik di negeri tercinta ini.

Gimana, ada yg mo nambahin lagi alasan knapa gw/lo/kita harus marah????

Thursday, March 22, 2007

FAQ tentang Psikolog dan Psikologi

Fyuuhh... Sebagai ilmuwan Psikologi *tsah!*, gw sering banget ditanyain pertanyaan-pertanyaan yg sama berulang2 Thanks to mba May yg memberikan tautan kepada postingan orang rajin membuat FAQ & jawaban mengenai hal ini. So, kalau kamu (iya, kamu, jangan clingak-clinguk deh) pengen tahu jawaban pertanyaan2 tsb, baca sendiri ya....

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

What does my handwriting say about me?

Ini hasil "bacaan" tulisan tangan gw. Hasilnya liat aja sendiri? Match apa enggak ama gw yg "sebenarnya"? Mm... gimana ya. Baca aja tanggapan gw.

Handwriting Analysis

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

Katanya sih ...

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry. => cukup sesuai
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones. => kok tau si???
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented. => intinya : gw mempesona. huahahaha... *narsis mode : ON*
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody! => sama sekali enggak! gw gak suka ngomong malah. Gw kan pendiem *backsound : percaya.....*
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself. => Gw percaya diri pada apa yg emang gw yakin gw kuasai. Suka diperhatikan? Yeah, kadang2 terganggu juga si ma sorotan kamera paparazzi yg menguntit gw *hueks...hueks...*

Nah, menurut lo (iya, elo, jgn liat2 ke belakang!) sesuai gak hasilnya dg gw yg lo kenal???

Love you, Mom!

19 Sept 2007 - 23.00 WIB s.d. 20 Sept 2007 - 01.00 WIB

Gw bikin nyokap marah. Saking marahnya, botol hand body lotin yg selesai nyokap pake dilempar ke sudut ruang tamu. Gw ngerasa bersalah tapi belum mau minta maaf. Gw juga gak berani liat wajah nyokap. Pas gw dengar suara nafasnya mulai teratur ("berarti nyokap udah tidur," pikir gw) baru deh gw berani liat wajahnya. Duh, kok gw ngomong gitu sih tadi? *merutuki diri sendiri* Dan gw menghabiskan waktu sebelum tidur itu dengan menganalisis relation gw-nyokap sejak dulu.

20 Sept 2007 06.30 WIB - 07.15 WIB

Gw siap-siap berangkat ke kantor. Dari bangun tidur gw gak ngomongan ma nyokap. Nyokap juga gak bilang apa-apa kw gw. Rasa gak enaknya makin merayap.

20 Sept 2007 08.00 WIB - 18.20 WIB
Selama di kantor, gw ngerasa gak enak hati. Bersalah. Ngerasa kalo gw kok bisa bilang gitu ma nyokap. Karena kepikiran terus, makan jadi gak napsu, kerja gak konsen, becandaan gak nyambung.

20 Sept 2007 20.00 WIB
Sampe rumah, nyokap lagi di teras. Setelah ngucapin salam, gw peluk nyokap. "Mirna udah bikin mama marah ya? Maaf ya, Ma." Wushhhh... rasanya ilang tuh beban yg gw rasain dari tadi malam. Ngelewatin 1 hari aja rasanya 1 minggu yang berat banget klo inget kelakuan minus gw ke nyokap tadi malam. Denger gw ngomong gitu, nyokap cuman bilang, "Ah, enggak kok, Nang" Sambil ngusep2 punggung gw. Huhuhu... berasa disayang banget gak siy...???? Oya, "Nang" itu panggilan sayang nyokap ke anak ceweknya dalam bahasa Batak.

Mama, love you so much. Maafkan anakmu yg memang kadang asal ngemeng doang.
Gw suka terkagum-kagum sama penulis llirik lagu. Favorit gw : Melly Goeslaw. Tau dong ya lagu-lagunya yg bisa menyayat hati, bisa juga bikin semangat. Menurut gw, tiap orang pasti punya lirik favorit, walau belum tentu seluruh lirik lagu tsb disukai.

1 lagu yg gw juga suka liriknya sampai mikir :"Kok bisa si pengarangnya dapat kata ini?" adalah lagu "Dealova" yg dinyanyikan Once dan diciptakan oleh Opick. Baca deh cuplikannya ini, terutama kata-kata yang gw warnain merah.

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu...
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu....
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu...
ooohh.. karena hati tlah letih....

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh...
aku ingin kau tau bahwaku selalu memujamu....
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati...
oh bayangmu seakan-akan....



See, banyak cewek bisa klepek-klepek denger lirik kayak gini nih. Bahaya! *terdengar backsound "Jagalah hati"-nya Aa' Gym* . Gimana coba dia bisa kepikiran klo langkah itu merapuh sedangkan hati bisa dirantai oleh waktu ? Gw yakin banyak penggombal yg terinspirasi oleh lagu-lagu model gini. Watch out, girls! He3x...

Nah, lirik favorit lo sendiri apa?

Love is selfish ?

...

atas nama cinta
kurelakan jalanku merana
asal engkau akhirnya denganku
ku bersumpah atas nama cinta


("Atas Nama Cinta" - Dinyanyikan oleh Rossa)



Cinta... kadang (ato sering?) bikin kita jadi egois dan masokis. Weleh..weleh..